May 26 2008
Welcome to my World
Since this is my first post, let me go about introducingmyself. I’ll start by answering thequestion I am sure you all have. What the hell is up with the name? Are you agirl? No, I am a guy. In the past I referred to myself in the seductioncommunity as Ixtlian then Psycho Teddybear and then still Grizzly Havoc. All ofthese names meant something and had significance. Ixtlian is the name of anancient pre-Mayan god of rebirth and happiness. Pycho Teddybear reflected mypersona that developed over the course of my Pickup Asia boot camp ( www.pickupasia.com). FinallyGrizzly Havoc was a name that Kid44, advanced seminar instructor at Pickup Asia, and I createdback in February of 2008. I am a big guy, 6′5 and 220 lbs, in other words,built like a bear. For the longest time I identified with the grizzly bear.
The creation of this blog is the commencement of a new pointin my life. The name Rishana was something I created in 9th gradeJapanese class when I saw a conversation between a girl named Risa and Shana ona worksheet. Since then the name has stuck. Rish is the guardian of the throneof my soul and all who wish to proceed must pass her stern judgment. She the embodiment of my true, unfilteredthoughts, my honne. She is the whispers in the back of my head thatlead me on the right path when all seems lost, the light in the darkness.
Most importantly however, Rishana is the name of The Beastthat I long ago chained deep within the darkest reaches of my heart to protectmyself. The task in front of me now is to reawaken that slumbering force. Mylife until now has been that of learning to drive a car with one wheel missing.As skilled as a driver as I may become, the vehicle is still flawed. If I am toachive all that I am capable of, I must undo her chains one by one.
Today, I for the very first time, begin my commitment to live andexperience life.
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